change a bit..BM turn

hi~
haha..ok now for this post,I would like to write in Bahasa Melayu.. hehe..
just to let go everything in my mind~

untuk pertama kali,ejat menulis dalam bahasa ibunda ejat sendiri.. skang ni,ejat hanya hendak menulis,apa saja yang ejat nak tulis.. secara jujurnya,sejak kebelakangan ni, ejat mmg slalu tewas kepada sakit yg menyakitkan.. dan bagi mereka yang rapat ngan ejat,mereka slalu risaukan ejat..maaf,takde niat nak sakitkan ati awk2 semua..da sakit,nak wat camne..dan seiring jugak dengan kedatangan sakit2 ni semua, ejat selalu didatangi mimpi2 buruk dan mengarut..melibatkan diri ejat dan mereka2 yang ejat sayang lorh..mcm sesuatu kan? kdg2 prasaan sebegini membuatkn ejat terasa masa utk ejat da singkat..entahlah,perasaan je kot..

dan ejat jugak mengalami krisis diri yang semakin menebal dan kronik..bagi sape yang mengenali ejat,dorg akan fhm la..ejat mmg jenis suke memendam,mendiamkan diri, bersabar dan selalu mengalah..tp kdg2 bile ejat wat macamtu,ramaikan yang ambil kesempatan..bukan la ejat merungut,tapi ye la,kdg2 ejat rasa tension ya amat pulak..

bila ada benda yang melibatkan hati perasaan,ejat mmg tak dapat nak tenangkan diri.. in fact,ya,I'm sensitive..so,please, mind ur manner when with me.. kalo nak cakap hal cinta dan kasih sayang pulak,erm.. compilcated sgt.. with my ex,my current luv n me,myself.. i wish i could share this but no one suit..so let it be..haha!

performance study ejat sem ni,sgt2 teruk! ejat ta dpt nk ckp camne,but I'm sure this sem is my falling era~! urgh,ape la masalah aku ni...=.=

kwn,herm, ya,ejat ta tahan dgn prangai kwn2 yang pentingkan diri.. frankly speaking, ejat BENCI org yang rasa diri dia betol, tanak dengar nasihat org lain,ego, feeling2 'diva',takda sensitivity dan cakap besar! kalo stakat skit2 ejat leh trima,tp kalo da byk sgt,rase sgt2 annoying,becoz later on,ejat yg tension~!! dan lagi satu, ejat bukan jenis yg ckp lepas, dan ejat kalo rase perlu,ejat akan akan ckp elok2..but y? sometimes org ta wat bnde yang same kat ejat..haha,ntahla~

so ejat plak nanti akan berpindah rumah,oh shit! benci sgt! tak sukee!! ejat da slese kat sini(slesa kah?)..last2 kne pindah..mmg la nak pndah ,tp tolong la bagi mase sikit wahai AGENT RUMAH BANGANG!sial tol..

dear lecturers, tolong laa! jgn mengajar sebab nak duit ok! ajar tu elok2 sket..dan tolong la,jangan pilih kasih! ni university,bukan sekolah lagi,plajar2 kesayangan? bullshit! kat university ni, mmg tak boleh nak pilih kasih, dan sdarlah,ramai yang memerhati..bile ditegur,melenting plak kan? sdangkan plajar kesayanganmu itu terang2 la syaitan ya amat! dan kamu dengan mulut kamu yg sial tu lecturer,boleh pegi mati..phm? benci doe! arap ko berambus cpat2,,ko dpan aku,bile mintak tolong,amboih, SOPAN ye..tapi blakang? cam lahanat! ko ngan student sayang ko bole pegi mati..

ade lagi nak tulis,tapi memandangkan mase kat cc ni da nak abes,ejat hentikan..hehe..
till next time!

the only beginning

I understand that I'm a different person now..well,people do change. What I can say now,I'm a bit stressful right now.. for some people,I'm a soft-kind-hearted person,however not everyone know that I'm a person with high remembrance and I can be an appreciative person, or a vengeful person..
for a situation right now, all the things happened around me lately were caused by me..I can't stop blaming my self..ya,I'm annoying,I admit it.. Right now,I'm the new ejat,it's just a slight different from the old one.. the only different is my appearance,my attitude..but inside,I'm still the same..
People around me keep using me,n I know that too..People be nice with for some reasons.. It's something for something..
When I was young,I learn that I have to respect everyone,in order to be respected.. My parents taught me to be nice,humble,talk nicely and so whatever thinggy.. ya,till now,I do the same,but no one gonna do the same way I does..
To be honest, I hate that..I need a sincere frenship,relationship and partnership..
I dunno how long I'm going to be like this,but I can see I'm dying because of this..
several people will come and accuse me for something that I didn't do.. I'm trying to take care and comfort everyone,but no one understand.. Now with the mysterious illness with me,I can't deny I'm stressful..the only person that I have is only ejal.. ok,ejal is special to me..He always there when I need someone.. For now,he's the only one I trust and believed.. I see his sincerity.. Now,the other problem is about ejal too.. I know,I'm just a burden to him,but still,he's there for me.. and I know,not all with us, there some against us.. that's y I told him, I didn't give any profit or advantage to be fren with, but he deny it..He told me,stop blaming myself, stop thinking bout all dat stuff.. and the way he treat me,to be honest, NO ONE ever treat me like that before.. and I can't stop my tears when I can do nothing to help him when he's in trouble..ejal, thanx for becoming the colour of my life.. u r now one of them who I will never forget till the end of time.. =)

About the death of Datuk Sosilawati.. and how will our world be safe again?!

Ok now..I'm quite sure that almost all Malaysians know about the death of Datuk Sosilawati Lawiya and 3 others..
What could we say about that? well,we can't deny that nowadays, the people in this world now starting to become crazy, become a hunter and hunted, like million years ago..
erm,ya.. the murder of Datuk Sosilawati just too mean.. Too cruel and should be taken lightly..
The cause of the murder?Nothing else.. It's all about money,wealth and power.. Ya,it is true that Datuk Sosilawati was a successful woman,but she worked for it..
And I'm totally sick and tired of these murder cases.. Since i was young till today, almost everyday I will heard about these.. From Mona Fendi,to Altantuya Shaaribu, now Datuk Sosilawati..

back about Datuk Sosilawati,
Now, consider the temerity of the party that could order the killing of four individuals, one of them well known, and just make the bodies disappear.

Some clout there. Or should we assume that practice makes perfect. Rumours are rife…but let’s not go there just yet. Whatever said, I think the police did its job…and this is pretty fast.

The families of the dead must be quite distraught right now. My condolences go to them.

And we Malaysians..just hope that this case will meet it's exit soon.. and pray that there are no more cruel,mean and pathetic murder cases anymore...lets have a peace Malaysia~!

I'm back.. after 5 months?!

Haha..yup,that's true.. I finally sit in front of my lappy and writing this blog again..today is the 3rd day of Eid month..2.01 a.m
ok,now for the real deal..
Throughout these 6 months, there a lot of things happened to me.. Let me recall back~

someday in May
- I had a fight with my roommate, thus causing he himself to moved out from our rental house..It wasn't my fault,but not he's fault either..now,our relationship are just so cold
- I got a part time job at Golden Screen Cinemas(GSC) at One Utama,for weekends only


14.6.10
- I went to University Malaya (UM) to meet my gf (now ex-gf),elifa..Eventually, it's her birthday.. Just to let u know..even it was a short dating, trust me, I was really happy to see her again after 3 months we didn't meet at all..even we met at UM only,I guess that's enough for me..even I was a bit disappointed,but nevermind..I have to respect her needs..


23.6.10
-it was the beginning of something new..only some peoples know about it.

7.7.10
- The most painful day in my life ever.. I broke with elifa..we end up our relationship.. Elifa is my 1st ever girlfriend, & when she decide to end our relationship,nothing more I could do..The feeling,urghh, it was so terrible.. I felt like I've been pummeled down.. I don't know why,but 1 thing for sure.. we are finished..nothing to regret,it's her decision.


8.8.10
-I met someone in Shah Alam at Sec 17..we know each other through Facebook.. I describe this date as diamond.. why? just let me,myself know about it..


22.8.10
-also, I will remember this date till forever~ the unification of 2 souls into 1..
=)

29.8.10
- theme song : my first kiss - 3Oh3! feat. Kesha

4.9.10
- I and Ejal had an accident on the road at sec.17 shah alam..My 1st ever road accident.

7.9.10
- I lost the V , but feel ur L..
(only who involved in this incident know about it..=P)

10.9.10
-the Eid.. but seems like this is the worst Eid ever for me..and I'm so sad..

well, I guess that's all for now..
so seems like my life is a bit miserable,but I will never ever give up!

another twist of my fate

well,after almost 1 month of absent,now I'm back to this blog..
During that time,I have experienced so much obstacles and opportunity.

Well, last february, I just have my 1st ever relationship anniversary with a girl Nurul Elifa. She is my 1st lover for me.. Now,after a year, I guess I should be more careful about our relationship. Also, recently I just got a new laptop from my parents and yes,it was a surprise.I was so excited for this gift and I hope it can be a great momentum for my studies at my university.. I also have been chosen to the Project Manager for the trip to the Parliament..

Also,I just finished my mid-term examination, and honestly,that was ultra hard.. I still don't know my result,but I can feel that it won't be really good.. anyway thank a lot to my friends who always be with me to study together.Recently, my health science's lecturer has been switched with a new lecturer, and the new one just to.. errghh! don't know how to describe her.. my motorcycle also quite troublesome recently, luckily I just got my salary for working at Sepang F1 Circuit..So,I can repair some parts of my motorcycle..My house at Shah Alam just too 'comfortable' for me.. I think the house are filled with predators.. haha.. only me can understand that..

Ouch, my writing has become badder than before.. I guess I really need to have some exercise.

Target vs mission!

Now,I'm almost 2 months with MSU.. So far,I still can follow MSU's educational stream.. By the end of March,I will face my first test, Mid-Semester test.. wow,I don't know what going to happen..but I hope I can do much better than what I've got at TPMC before.. My lecturers are at the best of what they do, and I guess now its all depend on me,either I want to go for it,or not.. yes,my mission here just to have a fantastic result,so I can proceed for MBBS program later..
Now,in semester 1,I'll have an event,alongside with all FMS students.. And our mission to collect some profit for charity. We choose to have a musical drama event. And we don't know if we can achieve this target.. That's mean,we will have some critical target here,as charity is one of the event that difficult to attract people. All we have to do is giving the very best of effort on it. But this event will affect my mission too.. But if I manage my time,it wont be a problem,I guess..

Friends or foes?

Undoubtedly, friends are one of the most important thing in our life. We always meet our friends in our daily life,thus they may affect our life,sometimes. Some of them are close with us,others may just a friend. Its not that easy to have a trusted and loyal friends. But among of these friends, some of them are having problems with us.Maybe they can't accept our behaviors,attitudes and personality,so that's why we should suit ourselves whenever we go to a new place. But,instead of telling us the truth,they tell to any other friends or people about our weakness and badness,and of course,they do it secretly behind our back. So,the first thing come in our mind,we might say that they are backstabbers and hypocrite.

But somehow,we must always think about the positive side. We must know what actually are bothering them.It would be stupid if they say they hate us because of nothing.Actually,I've already experience this situation,and I know how its feel. Sometimes we should muhasabah ourselves. We are humans,they are no chance in hell that human may escape from doing any mistakes in their life. and of course,we can't satisfy everyone's feeling. So,that's why me must look at ourselves back. Throw away the badness,take the positive one.
So,friends or foes? It doesn't make any sense. We should be forgivable,well. even the Prophet Muhammad forgive his ummah.
Arh! Oh my god! My assignments! Better be hurry~!!